completelycrazy | week 3 - katara

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week 3 - katara - saturday post-trial

[Katara will find Newt sitting on the beach, leaned back with his hands in the sand so he can look up at the stars. Eventually, he'll head back and make the rounds, say goodbye to people, pass on his final theories, or... whatever. For now, he doesn't really care about any of that. The silence is nice. The breeze sweeping in over the ocean is nice.

It'd be a hell of a lot nicer if he could do this again tomorrow night, but, well. He'll take what he can get.]

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Just... walking around. I can't sleep.

[ she doubts anyone can really just fall asleep, after all of that. ]

You were stargazing.

Yeah? Join the party.

[Newt doesn't plan on sleeping tonight, anyway. What's the point?]

They're different here. The stars. They don't look like the ones I'm used to. I'm not sure if that means anything.

They don't look familiar to me either. But we're from different places, so I'm not surprised by that at least.

... I wonder if anyone here at all recognizes them...

[He shakes his head.]

I doubt it. They look more randomized, and if someone did recognize them, they would've spoken up by now. Besides, the flora and fauna here is generic Earth stuff. Why not use Earth's sky, then?

[He scrubs his hands over his face. None of this matters.]

Who cares, though? This shit doesn't affect the game. We can't afford to worry about this kind of thing. [...] Or, I guess, you can't. I'm out now.

You might not be. Hal did say before that he revived the last group who played from the... from the dead. We can do the same for you too. And everyone else.

[ but they had to win the game in order to do that. ]

Did he? Huh. One more piece of evidence toward the VR theory, I guess. Cool.

[He should be more excited about this, but turns out, dying is still scary as hell.]

Did he say how to do that?

No. All he said was that they won the game. So we just have to... win this one, I guess, and everyone who died can be revived.

[ she sighs. ]

I'd prefer if no one died in the first place.

[He blows out a breath.] Of course he'd be obtuse about that. And how do we win, exactly? We barely even know what game we're playing.

[He's frustrated, though not at Katara. All of this speculation with little to no evidence is getting to him, especially now that he's about to die with no real answers. His life has been a waste of time. Or, well. His life on the island.]

Me too, but I have a feeling that, however we're supposed to "win", it's going to involve a lot more death, sorry to say.

[ he's probably right about that. no, not probably. definitely. and even if one path might have less death than others, there's still death. ]

... I'm going to miss you, Newt. That should have never happened, at trial. It's not fair.

[His throat tightens. That sure came out of nowhere. He sits up to dig at the sand, just for something to do with his hands.]

It's not. None of this is, but... That was like, a whole new level of unfair, hah. [Laughing about it will maybe keep him from wallowing in self pity, at least. Maybe.]

Make sure they listen next time, okay? Don't let the Chiefs pull that kind of shit. [...] I'm gonna miss you too.

[ she nods her head. ]

We're all going to get out of this. You, me, everyone still on the island, and everyone who... [ already died. ] And once it's over, if we have the chance, I'm going to show you how my bending works. And you can show me a compotter.

[ computer, katara. ]

[...

Newt laughs. It's genuine, this time.]

Close. It's called a computer. I'd love to see your bending, though. That'd be awesome...

[It helps, maybe, to have something to look forward to that isn't death. But even if they do manage to win this, the idea of having a chance to trade these kinds of things feels too slim for him to latch onto. Maybe, though. It would be very awesome.]

But you're right. We'll figure a way out of this. [Somehow.] If, um... If this really is some kind of computer simulation, I'll do what I can to help. If I can do anything, I mean.

[Again, those odds are slim.]

If there is even is a small chance, I think we should believe in it. If people act like we're doomed for failure no matter what, then...

[ there are a couple of people here with that mindset, and while katara can understand their frustration...

she's never been one to stop trying. ]

So you do your best, and we'll do ours, too.

[He chews on this for a moment, and then stands up. She makes a damned good point. It's easy to forget that here, even for him.]

Back home, the planet's been under siege by those aliens, right? They started attacking a little over ten years ago, and humanity's been on the brink of extinction ever since. [That's maybe overselling it, but eventually that's where this was headed, and he's got a point here.]

When things are that bleak for that long, it messes with your head. A lot of people gave up, or worse, tried to ignore what was going on. Hell, even the people in charge of the resistance efforts were pessimistic about our odds. I was an outlier. I got a lot of crap for respecting the Kaiju like I do, but in the end, that respect is what saved us.

[He shrugs. It's been, what, three weeks? But home feels very far away right now. His voice is flat in comparison to the other times he's excitedly babbled about Kaiju. It's hard to feel like anything he did mattered when he just got carted off to this hell hole immediately after.]

What I'm getting at is that, yeah, people are going to give up. It's just how this kind of thing goes. It's stupid and incredibly pointless, but it happens. Even if some people say screw it and give up, don't let that stop you. Even if you're the last person left alive that still gives a shit. That's still worth something. The more of you there are, the easier this will be, but as long as you're still fighting, that's all you really need.

We've made a lot of mistakes while here. A lot. And I know there are cases where it's because we were working with information that was meant to trick us, but we shouldn't just completely shake away the blame from ourselves. We need to... remember how badly we messed up [ she looks at him ] so we know what we have to do.

So... yeah. I won't give up, not until we've won and everyone gets to go back.

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