completelycrazy | week 4 - mary - sunday, post-execution

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week 4 - mary - sunday, post-execution

[Newt makes himself scarce after the execution. He ducked out as soon as it was over, and it's not until a few hours later that he turns up again. He's hiding in the comic shop, sitting on the floor in one of the more out-of-the-way aisles, turning his tape recorder over in his hands. Well, in one hand. His left hand can't seem to grip it quite right, and his palm is wrapped tightly in black fabric. He's looking a little pale, too.

Hm! Weird!]

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[Newt frowns.]

What? Hey, it's not your fault. You don't have anything to apologize for. And, really, I'm fine.

[Well.]

I'll live, anyway.

[...For the time being. Mmm.]

Yes, you will.

[She takes a deep breath.]

A lot of my friends turned against you this weekend...so I guess I just feel like I should've done a better job showing them how good of a person you are!

[But then, snapping her head up!]

They're all dead now, though, so it's fine! I chose your side, and it's the side that's still standing now! There's no reason to be upset! You're right!

...O-oh.

[hm. bad.]

Um, well... I mean, obviously I don't love that they came after me, but I don't think it was personal. I get why they were suspicious. So, um, I don't... I don't think any of them are bad people, I guess.

[And he doesn't, but he also doesn't really care about ranking people morally, so. There's that.]

But if they'd killed you...I'd have had to hurt them. So why can't we all just stop? Just stop hurting each other? I guess I don't understand...I just want to be friends!

[McLosin it.]

Whoa whoa whoa. [He kneels down so that he's not weirdly looming over her. His good hand finds her wrist, grips it tightly.]

You don't have to hurt anyone, okay? I don't want you hurting anyone, especially not on my behalf.

[But... He doesn't know what to say beyond that.]

I... Um. There's still a way to save everyone, you know? We just have to focus on that. See, the nice thing about dying here [newt???] is that it doesn't have to be permanent. It's like, when you get into an argument with someone? Like how me and Hermann got into an argument with Izaya and Monika? You can always make up from that later. People just disagree sometimes, that's all.

People disagree?

[She looks at her wrist in his hand, considering.]

Do you think...we'll all be able to forgive each other for these disagreements? For all the hurting...and all the lying?

Yeah, people disagree all the time. [A beat.] Me and Hermann are a perfect example of that. We disagree, like, basically constantly. But... I still trust him. Hell, I trust him more than I trust most people. I know he won't hesitate to challenge me if he thinks I'm doing something wrong, or... There's a lot of honesty in arguing, you know?

[He chews on his lip for a moment.]

Monika and Izaya really cared about Jacopo, right? Whether or not they were right to come after me and Hermann for killing him, the fact that they came after us anyway... They wouldn't do that if they were just, I don't know, pretending to be allies with him to get information or something like that. Arguing--accusing someone of murder, even--that's a hard thing to do. You don't do hard things for stuff you don't care about.

[He's not sure he's making sense, but. Well. Newt stans for yelling.]

[As long as he's not yelling at her, it's...fine! She's fine with it!]

I think I get what you mean. It's hard for me to understand, because of my entry fee and because I'm not human...when I see people yelling and hurting each other, it just looks like they really hate each other. Sometimes I don't know what's real.

Yeah, well... If it makes you feel any better, I think a lot of people are in the same boat as you. It's hard for most people to look past arguing, which is a bummer because not only is arguing productive, but it's also inevitable. Everyone's just... Really, really passionate about solving these murders, you know?

[He squeezes her wrist again.]

But, at the end of the day, all of us want the same thing. We're just not sure how to best get there yet. That's all.

But we're running out of time, aren't we? What if we argue so much and so long that we use it all up? I'm scared.

[A FEAR.]

Well, I... I think that might be a good thing, actually. We got those notes earlier in the week, about how to end the game. They mentioned one of the options was to just, uh, ride things out. Survive until the end. I'm starting to think those notes were onto something.

You really think that's the best idea?

[She frowns.]

I thought that one was just...silly. Why make a Reaper Game if we aren't supposed to get all the Reapers?

I don't know.

[At least he's willing to admit that.]

But... If that is the case, and we do need to get all the Reapers, um. Jacopo was a Reaper, you know. That's not to say he couldn't be your friend, too. I think the Reapers are just people like the rest of us, not like, evil or anything, but, um. We're all just playing the game like we're supposed to.

[...]

Sort of.

Jacopo and Izaya...my friends, and Reapers...

[Mary hangs her head, her stomach crawling.]

They were trying really hard to help, I know they were. They both told so many people important things that they found out through really hard work. I didn't know about Magnus and Taako and Setz and all the others, but they trusted me. If there were two groups of Reapers and one was there to help locate the rest, maybe killing them was a bad idea. Doesn't that just leave us blind?

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I... It's possible, but I don't think that's the case. Both groups of Reapers are playing for their own teams. It's three groups pitted against each other, not the Players and the "good" Reapers against the bad ones. And, um, I'm not sure that the bad Reapers are all that bad.

So you think that everybody's against each other?

[Mary's mouth turns into a wide frown. Clearly, she doesn't like what she's hearing.]

Isn't that the kind of thinking that will make the Composer like us even less?

Yeah, but it's the same kind of "against" as you'd find in like, a board game or something. We don't necessarily want to hurt each other, but we have to play the game by the rules.

[Or... something...]

But I also think the point of the game might be to figure out those rules and... Not really break them, but push past them, I guess? If we can figure out why we're being forced into this, I think we can save everyone. That means cooperation with both sets of Reapers, even if it's dangerous.

If we want to cooperate with them, we'll have to keep them alive.

[Otherwise, the game will be over before they have the chance.]

It sounds really hard, if the Reapers keep killing no matter how we cooperate.

Yeah, that's the problem.

[He sighs and scrubs a hand through his hair.]

But now there's just five Reapers, two "bad" and three "good" if you want to put it that way. The bad Reapers still need to kill, but they want us to win.

[She's nine, so, putting it in terms of good and bad is just easier for her. Still, it's a lot for her to really process. She's trying!]

And the others don't because they're trying to stop the nice-bad Reapers?

I'm not sure. I don't know much about the Reapers designed to target other Reapers. I just know that Jacopo was one. And Izaya... Who told me about all of this. He said that both factions are trying to truce to spare the Players, but Jacopo was against it. Now that he's dead, Akira might be able to pull it off.

...Akira?

[Where did that come from? Who...Akira? Who mentioned Akira?]

[Ah.]

He's one of the bad ones, apparently.

[Opens mouth. Closes mouth.]

Newt...do you know who all the Reapers are? Why did Izaya tell you all of that if he thought you killed Jacopo?

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